Memory of Red Cloud’s Granddaughter

 

          I’m back behind the cosmetics counter.

          I left here a year ago &
         
enrolled at the state university.
         
As a single mother & a Native American
         
I wanted better for my two sons.
         
I wanted to be a role model for them.

           My first semester was a success so
         
the school gave me a scholarship.
         
Then over the holidays my ex got out of jail &
         
came up to the reservation drinking & fighting.
         
I was there visiting my mother.
         
She was dying.
         
It all started to pile up.

          The spring semester I fell behind.
         
The school tried to help with tutors.
         
My sister took the boys.
         
My ex was back in jail.
         
Time went clicking by.
         
In the end I barely passed my classes
         
except biology which I failed.
         
The biology professor was from back east.
         
I don’t think he liked our people.

          I wasn’t able to be enthusiastic
         
about school after that so now
         
I’m back doing makeovers from
         
behind the cosmetics counter.
         
But I don’t think I’ll stay.
         
I have a new boyfriend &
         
he wants to go somewhere else. 

 

 

                                                                                Thomas Stein